just take me away.......
I didn't have any lessons, nor a role-model to follow but I wanted to be a mother more than anything other I thought I was capable to love and nurture to have a bond with three little baby dolls that filled my life with love. And after that story ended for me~ that my babies found their lives Without a way to warn me, I find out that all I did was fail. Does God wish for me a shorter life ~to spare me from the pain To find that ending and put them out of their misery For the ten years of human suffering must be my payment For doing this inadequate parent dance for the whole world to see WHY?? Why didn't anyone tell me I was wrong ~that I did not have what it took To love my children unconditionally....that I was not worthy, and I failed I sit here looking out the window wondering why I exist There are so many families that are filled with love ~I THOUGHT I knew in my heart that I was capable...only to find that the degree of my failure